In the mosaic of life, where hues of joy and despair interlace, I find myself caught in a whirlwind of emotions. The title of this blog post echoes a sentiment, a plea that resonates within the chambers of my soul – “Please, Don’t Give Me Pills…”

Life, oh how I cherish its breath, its vitality, yet my mind is a canvas painted with shadows. Negative thoughts, relentless and insistent, create a storm within, overshadowing the beauty that surrounds me. I am active, engaged in the world, yet the courage to take significant steps eludes me.

I yearn for life, for its vibrant hues to wash over me, but these persistent thoughts create an invisible barrier, making each breath feel like a struggle. For years, I’ve embarked on the journey of self-discovery, attempting to untangle the intricate web of my mind. Many remedies have offered respite, but alas, the relief is fleeting, like a bandage on an open wound that never truly heals.

Doctors and well-meaning individuals have extended their hands, proposing pills as a solution to make the burden bearable. Yet, a nagging question looms – what happens when I cease to rely on them? Can I ever break free from their grasp?

Please, don’t give me pills.

I implore you, dear doctor, to look beyond the quick fix and explore the roots of my struggles. Let’s run tests, delve into the intricacies, but let’s not resort to a temporary escape. I want to face the storm, not numb its roar.

Please, listen to me. Open your ears without offering solutions on autopilot. Let our conversation be a sanctuary, free from the burden of having all the answers. Please, see me, not through the lens of your own projections, but as I am, vulnerable and searching.

I’ve tried, tirelessly, exhaustively. Yet, the journey feels like sailing without a compass – clueless and adrift. Surrender becomes the only option, a moment to let go of the reins and trust the currents.

Today, I unveiled a glimpse of my battle on YouTube, a battle that remains hidden behind smiles and silence. It’s entitled “Please Don’t Give Me Pills…” – a plea for understanding, a plea for kindness. Share, like, and join the conversation, for mental health is a collective journey.

In a world that often seems cold, let us choose warmth. In times when understanding falters, let kindness prevail. And if that seems too much, let us refrain from causing harm.

Yours sincerely, Tati